I guess I should have realized a long time ago that summer vacation is a notion of the young and the free. By the time I had even written the last post here, I had already graduated high school and was about to embark on my summer internship at the National Institute of Standards and Technology.
I have been working at NIST for four summers now, including one summer of pure volunteering. I actually had my job revoked earlier in the year because of budget cuts. But I was lucky to have been re-approved in my position. “Physical Science Technician”. Not exactly what I would call myself, although I do work in the Physical Measurements Laboratory. I suppose I am a technician in that I use a computer all day long. My work remains in the databases of the physics web site, with my training in web-based programming languages.
One of those times again where I need to rethink of my life again. This job has become precious, like I had almost lost it. Although to be honest by the end of senior year the last thing I wanted was to work. I guess I didn’t know what to think: I had senioritis big time, and practically all I had been doing yearlong was preparing for music school. And I knew perfectly well the ambiguity of a future in a path like that. I had gone over it many times now.
By now my summer job is halfway through. And my mind has made about that much too. I really have forgotten the joys of programming, developing and designing for the web, learning new languages, and fighting hackers. It’s refreshing to be in the world of technology. I’ve realized that the world needs me for this; jobs may be scarce, but at least if I manage to keep this one or find one better, the pay will be higher and more stable. Suppose I do get some kind of big break from a random show of talent or whatnot. I’m better off not expecting it and only accepting that kind of fortune by chance.
Is it final? No. But my view of the future is more clear by just a hint more. I really need to see if I have time to double as a computer scientist and a musician.